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Monday, 09 November 2009

  • Who will Damon kill tonight??

    So wait! No one answered my question, except Tasty, as to what everyone calls flamey guys. There's no good name for us. I don't know about Queens. I just assumed there was some snappy little term I don't know because I'm not cool. heh.


    Another good Adam Joseph!

    Oh Mondays, I worked almost a full day and did talking doctor. I feel like life is settling down again. That's a good thing. Reese is getting back to normal and happy that we'll be spending the holiday week with his family.

    As for my masculinity... I think I'm starting to find it in some aspects. Like as far as my relationship self, I'm extremely submissive. But that doesn't mean I have to be "the girl." We're not like that and I'm actually starting to like video games. at first it was just to make the man happy that I'd get into his interests, but now I am getting somewhat good at the shoot'em games he likes.

    Ok I need to go start dinner. We have a marathon of Vampire Diaries to watch tonight!!

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Sunday, 08 November 2009

  • Faggoty Attention. ;)

    I heard someone... not Reese. Say recently "Well we're all just girls pretending to be boyish and looking for someone a little more boy than us." It was in a conversation on why we, most of we, not all we, love the straight guys or at least love masculinity.


    I still love this video, I know it's old, whatever. I'm not current.

    I know each and every one of you are probably an exception to that and you're secure in yourself and blah blah blah. But I know for me I like a masculine guy. I love flamey guys for friends and they make me happy to be around. But when one of them wants to hook up or go out or whatever, I just get confused.

    Is that wrong of me? I know it's not wrong FOR me. But does it come from a deep inner hatred of my flamey side? Does anyone still say flamey? What's the new words for that?

    I just know I really love it when Reese gets confused by colors or decorating or dressing himself in clothes that not only match but also complement his physique (He really does suck at this, before me he wore business suits or polo and jeans, simple but we can do better.). I complain but I love that he likes sports and plays video games and has straight guy friends who come over for beers and football.

    I don't go for guys my age, so it's not like I drool over skaters and surfers. The guys I do drool over usually don't think I'd be into them or they're straight and have a kid my age. haha. Oh God I'm creepy... My favorite guy to star at from afar is a very clean looking guy in a business suit. Sometimes when Reese is driving us home from a day at the office and he has a nice suit on and great tie.... I have a hard time not... easing his commute.

    But is this just one more way in which we over-critique our community? Pretty much all we talk about when we talk about the gay community is how bad it is or how we are too obsessed with youth or straights or anorexia or whatever. Why not talk about what's right about us? Maybe if we talk us up, we'll end up in a better place.

    This post has no sense to it... Just me rambling.

Saturday, 07 November 2009

  • Surrrveylicious!!!

    Sometimes I realize I am married to a twelve year old. Like he'll get really goofy and tickle me until I punch him and get pissed off and then he just laughs and chases me when I run off yelling "Get away from me!"

    Yesterday I hung out with Justin for awhile and things are going well with his new relationship, but I think he's kinda harsh on the guy. Like his past experiences he was very controlled and guys weren't so nice to him, but now he's being kinda hard on this Brian guy and Brian is just like "whatever you want baby." It's weird.

    Ok, too much to blog about so I'm just going to steal a survey from stickerprice! check him out, he's supercool. I'm deleting some of the questions i didnt think were worth answering.

    1. Would you rather deal with six weeks of constant daylight, or constant night time?
    daylight! I love sunshine! Rainbows! Cartwheels!

    3. What color do you plan on dying your hair next?
    I wanted to do something fun with it, maybe some black or red, but the man said no. So... no.

    4. About how much did your last haircut cost?
    75 bucks but he did a really good job.

    5. Do you own any Happy Bunny merchandise?
    What the hell is that?? Is that that bunny that says "You suck." ?

    6. How often do you shop at Claire's?
    I have bought a few things there, but am not a regular. they have cute nail polish colors for my toes... yeah... for my toes...

    7. Give me five things you'd love to buy right now.:
    a netbook... a silver stapler, one of those old heavy ones.... a leather jacket.... some fun rings.... a happy playtime toy. :D

    8. What were the best Halloween decorations you saw this year?
    These pumpkins with really elaborate carvings. so cool. then i find out they're using stencils now.

    9. Who's your favorite character on Sesame Street?
    Maria. remember her? she wasn't a puppet.

    11. What's your least favorite Nickelodeon show?
    I hate most nickelodean shows. i just dont watch it.

    13. Ever played ding dong ditch?
    What the hell is that?? Is that where you ring and run? oh we called it something different in the south... something you don't say in mixed company....

    15. What's on your ceiling right now (include fans, posters, etc.)?
    A really cool silver ceiling fan with these weird lights coming out, you can bend them in different directions.

    16. Who did you text last night before you fell asleep?
    Jesus, Mary and Joseph

    17. Ever rode in an ambulance?
    Yes, I cracked my head open when I was five.

    18. Have you ever stolen anything from your work place?
    Of course!! I order fun post-its and I keep them.

    19. Ever made candy apples yourself?
    Yeah!

    20. What about cotton candy?
    No!!! It's just sugar! It's a big fluff of sugar! eww

    21. Speaking of those two foods, what's your favorite carnival food?
    No carnival food, but State Fair of Texas is the BEST EVER if you must.

    22. Is there anyone after you right now who you really aren't interested in?

    Nobody likes me. They put up with me to hang out with Reese.

    23. A 13 year old dating a 17 year old; gross or fine?:
    I don't know anyone at 17 who would want to do that, but whatever.

    24. Is there anyone you simply can't live without?
    Yes of course, the man who pays the bills, runs my life and holds me on his chest every night. Sappy? yeah.

    25. Who has made the most difference in your life in the past six months?
    Me! I know that sounds bad, but I'm working on me. I want to be a person, a real person, one people respect.

    27. Ever look up your birthday on Wikipedia?
    No, does it send you a cookie in the mail?

    28. Your first kiss; romantic, gross, or something you barely remember?
    It was awesome but I was SO Nervous and he backed off and said, "hey, just keep your lips still and see how I do." and ive gotten better since then.

    29. Do you still remember your first boyfriend's address?
    Yes, I remember our address in Dallas and I miss it.

    30. First job interview you had? How did it go?
    It was here at my current job and it was basically the guy saying, hey, you want to work for me?

    31. When you flip a coin, do you usually choose heads or tails?
    It's a sin to gamble and I don't approve of such foolishness.

    32. What's your favorite brand of yogurt?
    I like the fiber one or activia, but it hurts my tummy.

    33. What color was the last car you were in?
    Red Volvo

    34. When was the last time you dressed up for something?
    Friday night, we went out for dinner and I looked all pretty

    37. Do you get along with your co-workers?
    I avoid them mostly, but my boss is cool.


    38. How many different languages can you say "hello" in?
    Hello, Hola, Bonjour, Howdy, Hi, Hallo, Bongiorno, Auf Wiedersein.

    39. How do you pronounce Xanga?
    Beyon-Jalais-Hafeek

    42. Do you study for finals and midterms?
    Of course!!

    43. When your friends take surveys, do you read their answers?
    No you do NOT Gary!!! haha.

    44. If you work, what do you normally do on break?

    I go and spy on Reese on the other floor.

    46. Do you like unique spellings of names (ex. Corinne becomes Karryne, Erin to Eryn, etc.)?:
    I hate them!!! HATE THEM!!!!


    48. Name a random type of car from the top of your head.:
    Audi

    49. What color is the background for text messages on your phone?
    black

    50. What was the last thing you drew?

    A penis disguised as a chicken

Wednesday, 04 November 2009

  • Want One, Rufus!

    Oh we had a GOOD run tonight! I was dripping and even the dogs were limping back to the house. haha. I love it when he comes home and he's not all tired out and stressed. We went five miles! Then we came home and showered up and made some food and watched TV. Yep, just a normal night.

    I want a netbook for my birthday. They are SO COOL and they do everything I need and are small enough to not leave a bruise on my shoulder. But I don't think I'll get one. *sigh*

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    His original idea was that I should get a new car... a sportscar. Oh really? Would that be for me or for YOU? Seeing as how he almost never lets me drive and my car will only be two years old and I don't really drive it now. So he'd trade in the car he GAVE me for my 19th birthday and get a fun car he would be driving. Because you REALLY think he'd let me drive a sportscar? The whole reason for getting me the volvo was that it's super safe and has more airbags than a.... oh damn I suck at jokes.

    So but the sportscar would not be safe and he'd be like "ummm I'll be home soon, just wait for me and I'll take you where you need to go." So yeah. I shot that down. That's not cool... He apologized for that one.

    Honestly I really don't need anything for my birthday. I mean I have tons of clothes and scents and shoes and whatever else. But I don't have a cute little netbook and they're getting cheaper...

    Ok in the last post I got some interesting comments on the things my mom says to me. Honestly, good or bad or however you interpreted it, that's my mom and that's how, in my experience, most Latinos think.

    We don't have the idea that life should be easy or good things should just happen to you. It's why we're always rated as the least depressed people. We expect bad. So we're happy when good happens. When you see life like that, depression doesn't really make sense. Maybe I have been around white culture too much. But I am half and half, so those two sides battle it out.

Tuesday, 03 November 2009

  • Is it Tuesday or Wednesday?

    Everything's going really really fast these days. I'm cheering up though. My talking doctor says I have guilt about emotions. Which is true. I know what my mom would say.

    "You've gotten too fancy. Crying is for people who can afford it. Tears are expensive, mijo. Bad things are going to happen. Are you starving? no. Are you sick and can't afford a doctor? no. You got bad teeth and can't get them fixed? no. You got a man who cheats on you and doesn't pay the bills? no. Ok then, you've gotten too fancy. Knock it off..."

    That's what she would say/has said. Talking doctor says, "It's ok to feel bad. It's ok to have emotions. We just want to understand what's causing them...." My mom would laugh at that. hah....

    Well in a few weeks we are going back to Reese's parents for thanksgiving. I kind of liked being in their house. they are so different from him. They're very laid back and friendly people. Yeah they have money and show it, but they're not like big presence people like Reese can be.

    The weird thing was having playtime there because his parents are around the house (they left the upstairs pretty much to us) and then the bed was tiny (which was kind of fun). And then the door to "his" room didn't really lock completely. So I kept worrying that they would walk in and see us naked.

    Reese said, "Well, if they walk in without knocking and find us naked, they'll never walk in without knocking again. Sometimes people need to learn from experience." hah! He totally didn't care. Oh well.

    So tonight I'm making chicken fajitas, black beans and a very good little salad. I'm going to make a black bean fajita for me, but I've been marinating this chicken to make these so I hope they turn out really tasty.

    Have a good night peoples!!

Sunday, 01 November 2009

  • Walk it Off Mason, Walk it off.

    You remember that Garth Brooks song "You Move Me?" This is a version I found of it. I kind of like this one better. But I downloaded it on my ipod and listened a few times and it kept making me cry. I've been doing that a lot this last week. I don't know why, I just feel overly Emo. Is that how you use that word? Reese gives me a weird look when I grab my Ipod now. Yesterday he took it from me and said "This has to stop!"

    Great song...


    I don't know. Luckily I have a guy who can handle it and fix me up.

    Last night we went out with Justin and Brian and this guy named Jason and his man Patrick. It was for Halloween but we just went out to this like restaurant/bar place. It was fun and I had two orange drinks until the server guy got mad at Reese. He was like "Sir, I can't bring you drinks if you give them to him. I don't even think he's 18. We'll get into trouble for that."

    Reese said, "It's ok, he's not getting another one and he's not driving and I'll make sure he gets home ok. This is it, sorry." Then the waiter guy got kinda huffy so Reese left him a big tip and that got a smile.

    I didn't dress up. We just all hung out and had some good Cali-Mex food and drinks. I had some good black bean quesadillas that were sooooo yum. The guys were really funny. I think Justin and Brian are going to work out. Brian's kinda whipped already. I think that happened rather quick... but I'm happy for him. He's a nice guy, they both are.

    Then when we got home we were having playtime. Ok this is gross so um don't read on unless you enjoy the gay arts. So ok I was on my back on our bed and he's over me just doing his thing and we were both a little too into it because I didn't realize we were getting closer and closer to the edge of the bed. He didn't either!

    So it was like "uh-huh, uh-huh, yeah, yeahhh... What the?... OWWW!!" I landed on my head and then rolled over and onto my tummy and banged my head on the wooden like bottom part of the bed. It hurt :( No concussion! knock on wood... literally! :D

    He felt SO BAD. He said we could stop, but it was good and I was almost there, so we didn't. I'm a champ. Walk it off, Mase, Walk it off.

Thursday, 29 October 2009

  • California... :D

    Well, we are home as of this afternoon. I still feel eastern-timey. I did nap on the plane. Reese worked and came home and went inside and is probably going to work all night. haha. Oh well... I do need some time to myself and I have to re-bond with furbs (the kitty). I'm going to sleep in tomorrow and then go to the talking doctor in the afternoon and then grocery store and we're going to stay in this weekend and make lots of food and workout and watch crap on tv. That will be good....

    His dad is ok. He's going to be fine and everything looks almost normal. He just has to go on new medicine and start working out everyday with a trainer Reese picked for him. I think things are going to be ok and Reese was mostly ok with coming home (it took a lot of whining on my part). But we're going to go back to Chatanooga for thanksgiving. I guess that means I'm not going to see my family. Reese said we could go to Dallas first and see them, but I know he really wants to go to Tenesee and I'm not going to be without him like we did last year. That sucked...

    So I will probably go for Christmas to Dallas and do family stuff and we'll work it out. My sister (in-law) understood. She said you have to stand by your man. heh. Ok... whatever. Oh there is so much to do... We left the house clean, but now everything is dusty and  I just need to spend tomorrow morning with my vacuum and sprays.

Monday, 26 October 2009

  • Not quite Georgia but... Where am I?

    I just need like an hour. Just... please? I go there, you stay down here... I love you but... 

    He's been all over me since we got here. Last Wednesday... or Thursday... I don't even know. I woke up with the man flying around the room grabbing bags and slipping into jeans and a t-shirt. "Babe." flies to the closet. "Baby, wake up, we need to go." Flies over to the chest. "C'mon Masey, put some clothes on and brush your teeth, we need to go in about ten minutes."

    So here we are in Georgia... or Tennessee... I lost track with the going back and forth. I'm just calling it Gennessey. It's all around Chatanooga. His dad had something like a stroke. He'll be ok and he can talk and stuff, he came home today from the hospital. But we're here.... I don't know for how long but the man hasn't really let me out of his sight except for the night I babysat his nephews while he and his sister went to be with his dad.

    So we're at his parents house which is not the house he grew up in, but his mom put his "room" here just like he left his room at the place he grew up (She's OBSESSED with him, very creepy). How weird is that? So we're sharing a twin bed because there's people in the other beds. Which is fine. I'm used to crashing on top of him. Even in our big bed at home I am snuggled against his chest.

    So his dad will be fine but it really upset him. He's kind of iffy about his mom, definitely not a momma's boy and he's yelled at her more than a few times when he thought she wasn't being nice to me. That's not good because now I have no idea what she thinks of me. I did make dinner with her a few nights. So... she seemed ok with me.

    I got invited to go to the mall with his little cousin today but he said, "No, we're going to hang out here today." He told me later she's only 18 and not a good driver... Ok but I'm 20 and I'm an ok driver and this little town has like ten roads and a small mall. Not like we're going to Atlanta...

    So he's giving me an hour cuz I'm just about to choke him... I wonder if I could. He's pretty chiseled and his neck looks sturdy... maybe if I.... nah... that would never work... But I have until dinner is ready in like ten minutes... grr.

Tuesday, 20 October 2009

  • Well.... Reese always says....

    Ok Justin's making fun of me now. Tallboy Justin, not XangaJustin.... <=== Don't click that link! Keep reading! That boy gets enough traffic.

    So we were talking about his date tonight with Brian and I said something and he goes, "Oh, did Reese say that?"

    "Um no, why?"

    "Because two out of every three things that leave your mouth begin with the phrase, 'Well, Reese always says.'" AND!!! he did an impression of my accent! How rude is that? bastard... :)

    I don't do that. Well, at least not to the degree he's saying. But I've heard that before. I need to get my own sayings and wisdom. He just phrases things really well and he's a really smart guy so it's easy for me to recycle things.

    But then he said I just hold him to too high a position, like he's some religion or something. And then he backed off and said he didn't mean that and he's really glad he met us and stuff.

    Things are going well with him and Brian. I need pseudonyms for these people! The thing about tallboy is that he is really poor because he's paying for himself and working and going to school. So he kind of lives wherever he can find a couch. So Brian didn't want to drop him off the other night because he said it didn't look safe and offered him his guest bedroom until he can get a place of his own. But Justin said it was way too soon to offer something like that and he's really fine where he is.

    That's so sad though. I mean he's totally cool for making his own way and stuff, but I hope he and Brian end up together because Brian really likes him and they will make a really good couple friend for us. :) yay

Monday, 19 October 2009

  • And I need you.... I'm sorry....

    Ok ok, I am SO not going to go much into this since Reese keeps warning me to "stay out of it." When have I ever stayed out of anything? But Tallboy and Reese's friend (Justin and Brian respectively) went out Saturday night and I heard it went REALLY well and now they're talking and going to go out again. Other issues involved, but I will stop it right there. I hope they end up totally coupling so we have a couple friend. Couple Friend!!! I keep saying that... calmame Masito :)

    I love this song....


    Yesterday Reese walks in and says, "Hey, let's go for a run." which puts the house into total chaos. The dogs bark wildly and go for their leashes. I get all excited and go for my leash... water bottle..... yeah water bottle. Then furble gets all mad and punishes us by going into the other room and glaring over her shoulder at us. But it was fun and so pretty out.

    So today I'm at the talking doctor ( I told him that's his Native American name). And we're talking about Reese's fetishes, like things he likes me to do or um... well I won't get into that. I thought he would be shocked but he said those are pretty mild and it's a really nice thing that Reese is open enough to share those things with me rather than hide them or be embarased. It's also supposed to be good because I'm ok with them and I participate happily. I was surprised. but that's good!

    So then he asks about mine! So I told him and expected the same level of support and ease with it! Denied! He says he wants to explore these a lot more and find out what's causing them and where they come from. What? Why? I don't get a pat on the head and gold star in my chart? So that made me mad.

    Am I The freak? I've always been the normal one, too young to be counted as weird just yet.... too naive to be diabolical. Oh who am I kidding... I'm effed in the noggin. 

    I hate Rob Thomas and that Diamonds on the Floor song. They keep playing it.... THey won't Stop!!

    Favorite Quote from a Commercial, "We're Americans!! We have our own Cheese!!!"     LOL!!!

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